Thursday, January 10, 2008

With My Heart Heavy...

My brother and his wife made the brave decision to take the baby off the respirator and feeding tube this afternoon. He was given last rites shortly there after.

He took a turn for the worse a couple of days ago. He starting having seizures. The tests showed that he had between 15-20% of his brain present. His liver and kidneys were not functioning. There was no chance for him to survive.

I know he's not in pain. I know he is no longer suffering.

But my heart is just so heavy right now....I feel like I'm walking around in a fog.

I don't know if I want to drink every drop in the house, eat every bit of chocolate in the cabinet or what.

So I'm just going to sit and breathe.

25 Comments:

Blogger Annika said...

I'm so sorry.

7:26 PM  
Blogger Lilith Parker said...

*big hug*

7:49 PM  
Blogger Christie said...

I'm sorry to hear about you nephew. All I can say is that you are continually in my thoughts...you whole family is.

8:02 PM  
Blogger CinderOla said...

I'm so sorry hun. I wish there was something I could do. :(

8:55 PM  
Blogger Gauss said...

I am so sorry...

9:50 PM  
Blogger Carole Knits said...

I am so sorry. This is such a difficult thing for us to understand. I hope you and your family can find peace with all of this.

10:08 PM  
Blogger Xia Diaz said...

I am very sorry. I'm sending you a big hug.

11:31 PM  
Blogger erasmus (aka jiva) said...

my deepest and most heart felt condolences. Breathing is the only way. take time out, relax and understand that poor soul was not meant for this world, not now. It is a very sad shame you all have to suffer with this loss.

3:28 AM  
Anonymous Woolybuns said...

Such a devastating time for your brother and his wife and all of your family at such a tragedy that should have been a joyous event. My deepest condolences to you all.

7:24 AM  
Blogger Marla said...

If you need anything this weekend, even if it's just to get out, I'll be around. My heart goes out to you and your family.

8:35 AM  
Blogger jennsquared said...

So sorry to hear. At least he is not in pain any longer. ::HUGS::

8:36 AM  
Blogger Laurie said...

Breathe. Each day will get better.

9:50 AM  
Blogger missalicefaye said...

I'm so sorry-I'll be thinking about you and your family.

10:24 AM  
Blogger Kim said...

I'm so sorry.

10:42 AM  
Blogger sophanne said...

so sorry breathing with you

10:44 AM  
Blogger Firemanshunny said...

I am so sorry. My prayers are with you and your brother's family.

11:06 AM  
Blogger Archiknist said...

I'm so sorry, Heidi. Is there anything I can do? I'm thinking of all of you.

12:29 PM  
Blogger Patty said...

There are no words adequate to bring comfort. I'll hold you and your family in a beautiful white light in my prayers.

12:37 PM  
Anonymous Beth said...

I'm so sorry.

2:52 PM  
Blogger Baby Beth said...

If there is anything I can do, let me know. **HUGS**

5:27 PM  
Blogger Acornbud said...

So sorry for your loss. Hugs

3:44 AM  
Blogger KnelleyBelley said...

I'm so sorry.

12:44 PM  
Anonymous AlisonH said...

I am so sorry.

11:14 PM  
Blogger Deenz said...

Many condolences and hugs from me, too...

9:27 PM  
Blogger Octopus Knits said...

I'm so sorry for your brother and his wife, and your whole family... that's such a sad thing....

12:25 AM  

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