Monday, February 11, 2008

Failing as a Blogger.

It seems like I don't have much to blog about these days. I'm not knitting nearly as much as I was, so therefore there's no fun finished knits to show off.

I'm still working on the vest for Schaefer Yarns. Still working on Minimalist Cardigan. I'm doing my best to rest my wrist.

And I'm also immersing myself once again into algebra. I'm actually *getting* it. I just have stop listening to the cute Brit next to me. (haha- inside joke for the NHSnB'ers.)

The sun is out, finally. But it's also an obnoxiously cold temp outside.

I just finished watching an episode of Oprah from last week. She had on Peter Walsh, a declutter expert. I love when he's on. There's a lightbulb moment in every show. By nature, I am a clutterer. I love stacks and stacks of things in my house. I have a love/hate relationship with the chaos of clutter. Growing up, I had a few bad experiences with someone coming into my room at night. By having my room a mess, the sound would wake me and give me a few seconds warning.

That internal, instinctive need for a safety net has never stopped. Although the person who hurt me in the past no longer lives with me and although I'm safe, I still feel the need for clutter, especially next to my bed. There's books, knitting, a few jars of hand cream, a lamp, clothes, papers, etc. all piled either on my nightstand or next to my bed. My very patient and loving husband understands why I do it and tends to let it go. When he feels it's getting out of control, he gently advises that I pick it up. Usually I do. Sometimes it's not the right time. Then a few days pass and I clean it up.

Anyways, back to Oprah- whenever Peter is on the show I feel like I need to reign it in a bit. This time I'm going to tackle my closet, which is in The Boy's room. I'm giving myself the generous time frame of one week to get it cleared out. Maybe, if I'm a brave beaver, I'll post a photo of the destruction and of the clean up.

Hubs and I want to move. We've outgrown our home (NOT FROM MY CLUTTER!) and it's time to move on. We can't show our home with my cluttery secrets, can we? So in the next few weeks I know that I have to really reach far into myself and let it go.

Stuff is just stuff.

Just remind me of that in 3 weeks- ok?


Blogger Christie said...

Stuff is just stuff. That's a good thing to remember. Lord know I hate when I start stacks everywhere. And I'm always amazed when I tackle even one of them how easy it is and tend to wonder why I didn't handle the stack before. Laziness mostly. I wish you luck in your decluttering endeavor...and I'll pass on some advice that another blogger gave me. Just work 15 minutes everyday. That way you don't feel overwhelmed and you have a definite start and end time. Set a timer and go. And if you find you're still in the mood after the first 15, set the timer again.

Good luck!

6:09 PM  
Blogger jennsquared said...

I feel for you girl! I don't like clutter, but I seemed to always like to collect things which turns into clutter. Hmmm... Maybe I should start taping that show so I can get inspired.

6:32 PM  
Blogger KnelleyBelley said...

I'm a piler and a stacker. It builds up quickly. When I moved a few years ago, I had an attic full of stuff. Stuff. I got rid of so much then - and it was such a good feeling. Now when the piles and stacks build up, I take great pleasure it chucking as much as I can. Just do a little at a time. Stuff.

7:57 PM  
Blogger Carole Knits said...

I saw that episode and I thought it was great. I decluttered by getting rid of a fake tree that I've had since my mom died. I looked at it and realized I hated it and BAM out the door it went.
Good luck with your decluttering. I think your reasons for stacking things around your bed are heartbreaking.

8:02 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

If you need help decluttering let me know. I'm the exact opposite. I throw everything out...which sometimes can be a bad thing, like when you're supposed to wait 6 months to send the proof or purchase from your cell phone box for a rebate but you've accidentally thrown away the box after a month or so. Not that I've done that or anything. The point is, my friends always call me when they need help clearing stuff out so I'm happy to help. :)

9:17 PM  
Blogger Sachi said...

Hmmm... I never watch Oprah but I'm going right now to read Peter Walsh's stuff. I need all the help I can get.

11:08 PM  
Blogger Archiknist said...

I also love decluttering... so much so that when I watch cleaning shows I'm sometimes sad that I don't save more stuff in order to have more to go through and weed. (This may be its own problem.)

Do you think a smaller number of intentionally placed things near your bed (arranged so they're decorative) would feel like enough clutter to reassure you? It's not exactly the same, but when I have a meeting I know will be tense/emotional/upsetting I wear a scarf or shawl--because then I'll be able to play with the ends as though I'm just fidgeting, as a substitute for what I'll really want to do (wrap up in a woolly blanket with knitting and never come out--which is frowned on at work).

10:10 AM  
Blogger Baby Beth said...

I know what you are going through. I am the clutter queen! I LOVE IT! But stuff is just stuff and I now realize that since moving and only having 1 small room (that I sleep in) to keep everything. And I can't hide stuff in the closet b/c it's a triangle and I can barely hang a full outfit in it. The Goodwill will love me. And it sounds like it will love you as well. Ebay might also become your decluttering friend. Just remember not to buy anything in exchange. :)

2:02 PM  
Blogger Marla said...

I read Peter Walsh's book right before we moved and it was a huge help. I got rid of so much stuff that I was just hanging on to. It was very cleansing.

I'd loan you my copy if I could find it. (Ha!) I really don't think I would have gotten rid of it, but it's not on my bookshelf.

8:14 AM  

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